So here the story goes.

Yea i know that there hasn't been updates.

Alot of things have been happening lately, sadly it's mostly depressing stuff which i won't ever want to bore you guys with. Those people who have been around me these few weeks know what has been happening.

two nights back i got affected by a triple whammy.
3 seperate incidents which coincidentally decided to fall within a 24hr period. This is the main cause of my depression. or rather i would like to put it as a depressed state. As what i am living does not constitute as a depressed vitcim. i still eat healthly and i don't shun myself away from the world and constantly think of suicide. That is just plain ridiculous.

I think i have finally fell into the traps of alcohol. I fear in the future i might be required to attend AA (alcoholics annonymous) meetings. Everynight, beit club or whatever, i find myself having to down at least a can of RED HORSE toget me peacefully to sleep, if not, more than one can or probably some other alternatives.
Things around me have just suddenlly become to complicated. With design projects on the way, with baracuda batucada having to cope with changes and stuff like that, and the ever so constant girl trouble. Commitments are ever so time-taxing. Sometimes it just gets lonley in the night when you really need someone to talk to but no one's there. However, much thanks to my bro, IZ, never failed to be there for me and vis a vis. But still, people need to go to school and work and camp so yea it's hard to be talking to myself most of the time. Therefore explains the alcohol.

One more point to add, baracuda is really like family to me, even if i've only know the juniors for such a short period of time, i'm confident we all can grow together and although they still have much to learn as i have still much to teach them, even i as a "senior citizen" of baracuda have much to learn from them as well. I really have to thank CHENG LIANG for giving me a watch today. It really perked me up abit, especially after losing my bevolved lil' bro's watch in the arcade.

But still even in a depressed state. I still do not wish my friends and family and all those whom are around me to be affected by it. As i feel that it would just be plain selfish on my part to let them have to bear the emotions as well. Yes, it has almost feels like as though like a mask infused into my skin. I really do not wish to bear this on my own, but by some twist of sick fate, mother nature has just decided to play a cruel game on me.

Kooch out.